The Beginning

Welcome! I'm new at this so bare with me. Lets start at the beginning, a little background about me and my life. The good, the bad, and the beautiful. I'm not really trying to get anything out of this other than the hope that I can help someone else know that they are not alone and can make it through some of the things I have. See the light at the end of the tunnel so to speak, even if sometimes I can't see it myself.


So here it goes...


I was born in 1988. We have a big family, however its complicated. Pretty much my parents were both married and had 5 kids and then after nasty divorces they met had me and got married. Yes in that order. I always refer to us as the Brady Bunch.









So because of this I have always felt like the outcast. my siblings all have their own issues but mine always seemed to be that i just wanted us to all get along. I wanted all of my siblings to love each other and me and our parents...all of them. So being the youngest I was constantly, once i got older, trying to fix relationships within my family. Which got me hurt more than once, eventually i learned the hard lesson that stubbornness was a family trait and i couldn't fix it so i gave up and focused on my own life. So i would like to think the roller coaster ride of ups and downs with my siblings over the years prepared me for what was to come as i became an adult.


So pretty average childhood other than family drama which we all have. I was really close to one of my sisters growing up because she was the closest to me in age but i wronged her. She got pregnant at the end of senior year of High School and it made me so angry. I thought she had ruined her life, things were so promising for her, she was so smart and i thought my niece being born was the end of all of that. Man was i wrong. I have watched all of my siblings struggle in life in different ways and for different reasons. They fall down and then get right back up again... (https://youtu.be/IFuFm0m2wj0) I always thought i would watch them and know what not to do...maybe its a little mean but i was just riding the ride and checking the info sheet before continuing on my journey. Not that my trip is over not even close but so much has happened. So to all of my siblings, i love you all and know that i have always looked up to all of you and you all taught me how to take punches and how to punch back.






I know, i know story of my life so boring...but just wait it gets more... interesting.